The Power of Gnosis: Standing Firm in My Divine Light

 Having the gnosis that I don’t need an audience to shine feels like one of the greatest freedoms that I have ever embraced, where it’s not just an abstract idea—it’s a lived experience of a profound shift in my understanding of my own self-worth. For so long, I based my self-worth on external validation, where my value depended on how others perceived me, whether they approved of my choices, if they acknowledged my accomplishments, or even if they accepted me for who I am. But now, I know that my worth as a divine spark of light is an inherent part of me, independent of anyone else’s recognition. From being self-aware, I know that somewhere along the way at the beginning of my life, whether it was from generational trauma, societal trauma, religious trauma, or whatever kind of trauma, that the dysfunctional dynamics of placing my worth in the hands of others became ingrained in me (leaving me constantly seeking approval, validation, and acceptance from external sources, rather than realizing my own inherent value from within). But after having a spiritual awakening and spending many years doing the inner work, my fulfillment in life now comes from a deeper place inside of me, that is rooted in who and what I am at my core, and not in any external validation or approval. So, this understanding that I’ve come into (which is a deep, profound experience of gnosis), has allowed me to step into an elevated psychospiritual state where I don’t just feel confident in my self-worth—I am confident in it. And so, I no longer give away my power and compromise my intrinsic value (and overall psychospiritual health) by placing my worth in the attention, applause, or approval of others.

As I’ve continued to grow and evolve on my journey, I’ve come to realize just how much freedom lies in releasing the expectations of others, where I’ve now entered into a space where I’m liberated from the burdens of societal, religious, political, and familial expectations (which are those systems and influences that once tried to place unnecessary burdens on my soul and mold me into something that I’m not). With this newfound liberation, I’ve discovered that there is a profound sense of relief in no longer feeling weighed down by the pressures of conforming to what others think I should be and instead, I find joy in being set apart from the world around me, knowing that I’m no longer playing by rules that were never meant for me in the first place (that were meant to bind me to a matrix of control, conformity, and limitation designed to keep me from fully stepping into my authentic power and truth). Furthermore, as I continue to shed the layers of external expectations and conditioning throughout my journey of life, this will allow me to continuously stand fully in the light of my own soul, where I can bask in the presence of God as my true, individuated self (rejecting the notion that I need anyone’s acceptance or approval to validate my existence or needing a crowd to witness my radiance). And I can move through life with this inner freedom, no longer shackled by the heavy burden of pleasing others or needing to perform for them—in order to be found worthy.

Stepping into this new reality has been transformative on every level, where it’s not just about breaking free from external expectations—it’s about experiencing the fullness of my being, free from the heavy yokes that others might try to place upon me. It also feels as though I’ve come back home to myself, where I’m finally living in a psychospiritually liberated state of being as who I was always meant to be (before the world’s expectations got their hold on me), and that alone is an incredibly empowering realization for me. And while I still face adversity from time to time from unawakened souls (with their worldly generational, societal, religious, political, and nonsensical expectations), these experiences don’t diminish me in any way, shape, or form; but in fact, they serve as catalysts for further personal growth and expansion on my part. It’s a bit ironic though because each challenge I face, or through each obstacle thrown my way, it only seems to make my light shine even brighter, which is the total opposite of what those who try to bring their heavy-ladened expectations or their own personal patterns of unhealedness into my life intend. So, instead of being defeated by this adversity or spiritual warfare (that I just naturally experience because it’s a contrast to my light), I find myself rising to the occasion, where I stand even more firmly in my own self-worth, where it’s as though the more I’m tested, the more I radiate in the long run.

That being said, despite this profound sense of empowerment, liberation and growth (that I’m stepping more and more into every day), it’s important to acknowledge that living in this elevated state of being doesn’t mean that I don’t experience the full range of the human emotional experience. Because even in this space of transformation and enlightenment, I still encounter the natural ups and downs of life, recognizing that these experiences are part of the human journey (where I’m continuously provided with opportunities to deepen my understanding, resilience, and personal growth). But to provide a few examples for clarity on what I mean, I’m not immune to sadness, frustration, disappointment, anxiety, anger or pain, but as I’ve grown in my journey, I’ve learned how to navigate these emotions in a way that allows me to grow from them rather than getting stuck in them (unlike my previous state of existence where I stayed stuck in the same unprocessed emotional state for literal decades of my life). So, after a long and intentional journey of healing and self-discovery, through years of self-reflection and doing the inner work, I’ve developed the ability to transform my emotional experiences into opportunities for growth, where I now know how to alchemize and transmute the energies I encounter into something that serves my growth rather than hinders it. In light of this, this shift in my approach to handling my emotions and the challenges that life brings has been very transformative, as I’ve come to understand that I have the power to process what I go through and to move forward in life with growth and clarity (rather than to remain stuck in the same old patterns of mental, emotional, & spiritual inertia). And it’s this newfound ability to move through emotional experiences without letting them define me that allows me to maintain my sense of self-worth, psychospiritual freedom, and radiance.

Bringing my thoughts together to close out this reflection, I’ve come to a place where I no longer seek permission to be who I am. I simply exist in a state of being where I’ve embraced my own individuation and now live fully in alignment with my own divine spark of light, rejecting the notion that I must enmesh with the external world’s expectations of me in order for me to shine (where I wouldn’t be shining at all, just conformed to the shallow, limiting standards of the world around me that dim my true essence and that keep me from my own sense of healthy authentic self-expression). Keeping this in mind, after everything I’ve experienced and all the growth I’ve undergone, I’ve come to realize that this is where the real liberation lies—not in needing others to see me, approve of me, applaud me, or having control over me, but in the deep experiential gnosis within that I am more than enough, and that my worth is not based on external validation, societal standards, or anyone else’s perceptions of who I should be. And so having reached this deeper understanding of my own life’s journey, it becomes clear that, in essence, this is the core of my psychospiritual liberation, and it feels nothing short of magnificent. I’ve come into my own as a divine spark of light, free from the burdens of those people and systems that seek impose their soul-crushing, light-diminishing expectations upon me, and I continue to rise from my own previous stagnation, transmuting everything I encounter into fuel for my ever-growing light.




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