I Am Not Your Moral Test – I Am My Soul’s Expression
As an individual who happens to be gay, I’ve had to sit with the uncomfortable truth that in many low-conscious individuals, groups, and communities, there is a deeply ingrained belief that people like me are somehow subhuman—stripped of our dignity, reduced to a caricature, and seen as little more than a threat to their rigid worldview. And what makes it even more disturbing is that this mindset doesn’t just arise out of ignorance—it comes from a state of consciousness that’s so constricted, and so psychospiritually unevolved, that it cannot even tolerate the existence of someone whose life, essence, or identity falls outside of its narrow framework. So, when I speak of low consciousness, I’m not talking about just a lack of information—I’m talking about a primitive, fear-based level of awareness that is so emotionally stunted, so spiritually disconnected, and so psychologically dependent on sameness, control, and ideological uniformity in order to feel secure (where one’s sense of self is so fragile, so externally defined, and so deeply enmeshed with collective conditioning), that the mere existence of someone living freely and authentically outside of their rigid, dogmatically guarded framework is perceived as an existential threat. And the hardest part is that even when we are actively doing the deep inner work as individuals—healing, evolving, and stepping into the next stage of our own soul’s development in our own unique and multifaceted human journey (because being LGBTQ+ doesn’t define the totality of who we are, where we are more than just one label or identity)—there are still people who look at us and only see something to condemn. And it’s as if our very being confronts something that they’ve spent their entire lives trying to avoid within themselves, such as disowned aspects of their own identity, unresolved emotional pain, or the parts of themselves that long for freedom but were never given permission to exist—and rather than rise into a higher standard and level of human consciousness in order to meet those parts with honesty, compassion, and accountability, they double down on dehumanization as a way to avoid their own inner growth.
Because what it all boils down to is that they are using LGBTQ+ people as a way to avoid turning inward—where they’d rather stay stuck and stagnant in their own unexamined beliefs, unresolved wounds, and unhealed emotional terrain than to confront the discomfort of true self-reflection, where what they could find might be so confronting, and so destabilizing to the carefully constructed identities they’ve adopted for power, approval, or perceived moral superiority, that it would unravel the very narratives that they’ve built their entire lives around. So, targeting us becomes a convenient distraction for them to cling to, where we become a scapegoat for everything they refuse to face within themselves. And it allows them to preserve their illusion of righteousness while sidestepping the uncomfortable work of confronting their own shadows. And in that sense, their hostility isn’t just about us—it’s about their own refusal to evolve on their own journeys of self-awareness, healing, and psychospiritual maturation. And the real tragedy is, as long as they keep clinging to the illusion that making efforts to erase, silence, or exterminate those of us who live outside of their rigid frameworks of belief, behavior, or identity—thinking that it will somehow restore their own inner sense of equilibrium—or that our erasure will somehow shield them from the discomfort of confronting everything they’ve avoided within themselves—they will keep running from the very transformation or awakening that their soul might actually be crying out for.
And while I can acknowledge and understand concerns about the truly soulfully underdeveloped individuals within the LGBTQ+ community—where people have become so consumed by ideological rigidity, performative morality, or unchecked emotional wounding that they end up mimicking the very same closed-off mindsets and oppressive behaviors that they claim to stand against—that, too, reflects a lack of genuine inner evolution. Because spiritual growth isn’t about flipping the script and becoming the new gatekeepers of thought, identity, or morality, nor is it about trading one rigid belief system, identity, or psychological prison for another, as true psychospiritual development requires self-inquiry, depth, discernment, and humility—and not just outward identification with a community, social role, or cause. And unfortunately, there are people within the LGBTQ+ space who weaponize their identity as a shield against personal accountability, using it to deflect from any honest self-reflection about the ways in which their own unhealed trauma, emotional reactivity, generational conditioning, or attachment to group validation continues to keep them locked in cycles of unconsciousness. And in that way, parts of the community begin to resemble the very same systems of oppression that they claim to be resisting—because without doing the inner work, any group, no matter how marginalized or empowered, can fall into the same patterns of tyrannical control, emotional immaturity, and collective denial about the truth of where they are actually operating from.
But when it comes to the broader picture of polarized conservative, religious, and ideologically extreme individuals, groups, and communities that are actively seeking to impose their worldview within society at large by dismantling rights, taking away protections, and silencing any expression that challenges their authority—those who believe that their singular way of existing, being, and believing is the only acceptable model of life, identity, or truth—one has to question just how underdeveloped these people truly are, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Because to genuinely believe that their rigidity is righteousness, their conformity is the only viable order, their inflexibility is strength, and the suppression of others is enlightened leadership, it reveals a consciousness so stunted that it mistakes unquestioned doctrinal enforcement for legitimate authority. And at some point, it stops being about ignorance and it starts becoming about willful blindness—where their desire to dominate, erase, or forcibly assimilate others reveals more about their own spiritual barrenness than it ever does about the people they are trying to control. And when someone’s entire identity is built around needing others to disappear in order for them to feel spiritually or morally stable, that is not a reflection of spiritual maturity or divine truth—instead, it is a reflection of someone who has not yet learned how to coexist with difference without collapsing into existential panic at its mere presence. And so, these are not people rooted in inner maturity, discernment, or any real connection to a higher moral compass; these are people clinging to a psychospiritually bankrupt ideological scaffolding because they have no internal anchor of wholeness, no cultivated inner depth, no capacity to hold complexity within themselves, and no allowance for the expansion of their own consciousness. And so, what they label as immoral or unnatural is often nothing more than a displaced expression of their own disconnection—from their own spirit, from their own complexity, and from their own unexplored humanity.
And while I can also acknowledge the reality where all souls are learning and growing on their own timelines, and that many people in the vast expanse of their soul’s journey are just not living in a lifetime where conscious evolution is their focus—it still doesn’t mean that those of us who are now living in a lifetime where our own soul is at a level of advancement, refinement, and accountability—doing the work—must tolerate, excuse, or be spiritually bound to the harm that comes from others’ refusal to grow. Because at some point, grace must be paired with discernment. And we have every right to create distance and to protect ourselves from energies, individuals, and environments that seek to dim our light, that seek to suppress our inner truth, or that seek to distort our humanity in the name of theological control, ideological conformity, or outdated dogma, where this isn’t about arrogance or superiority—it’s actually more about protecting the sacred space we’ve worked so hard to cultivate within ourselves, honoring the integrity of our soul’s path, and refusing to betray our own evolution just to keep the peace with someone else’s stagnation. Because being on a path of psychospiritual growth and development doesn’t mean sacrificing ourselves at the altar of someone else’s resistance to evolve—even if, during this lifetime, their soul isn’t ready or willing to take that next step. And it means honoring where we are in our own soul’s curriculum, recognizing the difference between having compassion for others and abandoning ourselves, and then refusing to sacrifice our own alignment just to make others comfortable at the level of development their soul is at (just like in our own past lifetimes and earlier experiences in this current life, when we weren’t yet ready to rise into the higher alignment, integrity, and conscious embodiment of our own dharmic path, where other souls were likely walking ahead of us, holding a light we may not have recognized at the time—just as we now hold that light for others who are not yet ready to see, rise, or evolve yet.)
